My Heart and Flesh Cry Out!

Throwing off the covers and springing straight up in my bed, I felt so desperate and longing. Desiring something more than I can put into words. Feeling so distant from that which I wanted the most. Thirsty and hungry to the point of pain and discontent. Confused yet focused at the same time. My mind was racing at 100 mph trying to make sense of what was happening at that very instant. I took a deep breath, and then began to piece together the problem. Before I laid down last night, the Lord took me to Psalm 84:1-2.

“How lovely is Your tabernacle, O Lord of hosts! My soul longs, yes, even faints for the courts of the Lord; My heart and flesh cry out for the living God.”

I had prayed just before going to sleep that my heart and flesh would cry out for the presence of God. I thanked God that He hears my voice and then fell asleep. I was expecting an answer, but not so soon. I didn’t think my answer would come in the way that it did. It was an extremely weird feeling. I was so desperate and at the same time comforted in the fact that my longing was a pure one. Comforted and overwhelmed by the fact that my King would actually give me such a tangible experience to understand what it means to long and faint for His nearness. I can now relate to this passage on a much deeper level. I know now what David was feeling when he wrote this Psalm. I am now no longer satisfied with a once in awhile encounter. My soul longs, my heart and flesh cry out. I must have more of my beautiful King!

~ by zachary wood on March 16, 2007.